we finally have an answer...

...and I'm so sad. We went to the doctor today. He had reviewed the ultrasounds from Friday, and was still unable to find anything in my uterus. He said that the HCG (quant) came back considerably higher, but hadn't doubled. My heart sank as I was beginning to think he was going to send us away once again... (only to have to repeat the series of tests in another 48 hours). Thankfully though, the ultrasound tech had seen us in the waiting room and decided to hang around a little later than usual (suspecting that the Dr. would want another ultrasound done). She checked my uterus and both ovaries and still could not find anything. So she continued searching...
(You know, throughout this entire week I've been preparing myself mentally and emotionally for the worst...but nothing could have prepared me for what I saw today.) There on the monitor was a tiny "bean" shaped being with a perfect little heartbeat. I blurted out to the tech, "wait, did you see that? Was that a heartbeat"? And she zoomed in on it and said "yes, that right there is what we've been looking for". I then asked her where it was at (still hoping that it might have been in the uterus); and she said "it's not where it should be, let me go get the doctor". As soon as she left the room, my eyes welled with tears as my whole world came down. But wait, that was our baby. But, I saw the little heart. But, isn't there anything anyone can do to save this pregnancy?
Dr. Semrad came in and affirmed that it was indeed a tubal pregnancy (implanted in my left fallopian tube). The cysts I have on each ovary, could just be a build up of hormones trying to maintain a pregnancy. He was pretty confident that once the baby is removed, the cysts will go away on their own. We also found out that a heartbeat won't show up (on ultrasound) until at least 6 weeks, making my assumption (of how far along I am) correct.
I have to go in tomorrow morning at 5:30 to have my baby removed, which will result in the termination of this six week+ pregnancy. Although, I am extremely emotional in this moment, I am calm. I received a beautiful blessing from John and Rob. I not only felt the spirit, but an outpouring of love from my Heavenly Father. I am in his hands, and I am at peace.