We were supposed to sign the papers and be able to take Asher home with us today... but there was a minor setback. Due to our birth mom's rigorous delivery, her doctor decided to keep her in the hospital an extra day. She requested that the baby stay with her until she be discharged. We were totally fine with that, as we have been telling her all along to take as much time as she needs. This whole experience has given me cause to reflect back to the long, black night in which I held my little Isaac's cold, lifeless body. I recall, as if it were yesterday, dreading the moment that I would have to finally let go. I remember how kind the nurses were as they told us we could take as much time as we needed. I probably took more time than they were expecting, but I'm so glad that I wasn't required to hand him over to the undertaker until I was emotionally ready to do so. I knew that I couldn't hold him forever, but it was comforting to know that no one was rushing me into anything. I think that whole experience makes me a little more empathetic towards our birth mom and what she is momentarily going through. In many ways it must feel to her like I'm the undertaker coming to take her baby away. I hope that today she was able to feel like she was given the time that she needed. She was so sweet to invite us to come back to the hospital and visit for a while. We took Ruby so that she could finally meet her baby brother, as we've been talking him up for months. She was in complete awe with his every feature.
I got the biggest rush as I held both my children in my lap, and watched as my daughter studied my son's face, and then his hands, on down to his tiny little feet (which in reality are huge!).
I know that Ruby will be such a wonderful big sister. We have been doing our best to prepare her for the changes that will be taking place, and I have a feeling she will do just fine. I'm excited for what the future holds. I'm excited for the events and changes that will be happening over the next few days and weeks. But most of all, I'm just excited for tomorrow to finally be able to take our beautiful, perfect, and long awaited, baby boy...home.
This last one was too sweet to not post. I thought it was so touching to watch John with his little son.